// Live Love Lust

t move on, but where do i go?

2010-05-04T01:34:00.000+08:00

yes. i know we've gone our separate ways, but i seem lost in tracks. yes, i know u'll nvr turn back but my hopes are still thr. idk why i keep wanting things t b back again when u showed no positive signs at all. ive got t be strong, like you.

you appear just like a dream t me.

2010-05-02T01:44:00.001+08:00

maybe today.

2010-01-01T16:05:00.001+08:00

Maybe today...
you'll look at me the way you did yesterday,
when all my faults were set aside,
and for once, i felt perfect.

Maybe today...
my cheeks wont hurt
from the amount of smiles
you place on my face
and the amount of butterflies you create
in my tummy.

Maybe today...
i'll think straight and pull myself together.
think of all the times you hurt me
and the amount of tearless pain.

But today...
instead of pulling out and moving on,
i fell for you all over again.

by R.M

a want.

2009-11-03T22:56:00.001+08:00

i wanted to. but i just couldn't...

i never needed pain, i never needed strain-

2009-10-28T01:00:00.004+08:00

So what's LOVE t you? Is it th ultimate feeling of comfort u get when u think of tht particular someone? Or is it counted by th number of days, months, years u've been together?

I knew i love you cos i feel lost when u're not around, i feel restless when i don't get t hear frm u, tht ur opinions meant so much t me, tht i'm willing t sacrifice. And knew i love you so much tht i'd rather hd my emotions tortured and when it hurts too much, i'd rather kill myself t end th pain when u don't actually care.

I admit i cry ALOT. And i'm a pussy. But for tht, u'll never ever understand why cos u won't let urself.

" Love has nothing t do with what you're expecting t get, it's what you're expected t give - which is everything."

So what if i gave everything but i tend t lose everything in th end? I'm torn between what was and what could have.

and i should have picked, 'TRUST NO ONE.'

2009-09-09T23:44:00.003+08:00

i tried and am stil trying t make u feel happy being w me.
i wanna b ur friend and ur lover.
i wanna do things for you.

u want t b respected, but u have t respect others too.
u want honesty, u have t give it t others too.

i want t b trusted, i gave it t you.
but u think i don't deserve t own it.
well now, i wish i could trust u w all my heart like how i did before.

You should have picked honesty.
All i hope now is for a CHANGE.

some personal feelings. don't bother.

2009-07-12T16:00:00.001+08:00

I wonder if i ever will be th BESTEST GF you'll ever have. Or am i even worthy of you. and for all th feelings im feeling now, its unexplainable.

<3

2009-06-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

' I wonder why it is, i don't argue like this with anyone but you.

I wonder why it is, i won't let my guards down for anyone but you.

We do it all the time, blowing out my mind. '

rehab.

2009-06-01T22:42:00.002+08:00

baby, i'm sorry for being a bitch sometimes. but do rmbr that i didn't mean to hurt you in any way. im sooo lucky to have you in my life. please don't 'cheat my feeling' again?

"Baby, baby when we first met
i never felt something so strong.
U were like my lover and my bestfriend,
all wrapped in one w a ribbon on it."

tears and joy_

2009-05-24T14:06:00.000+08:00

don't mind said. he's shy.

'SEXXXY DZUL'

saturday night w nana, dzul and said was short but nice. full of laughter, peace and joy. not forgetting dzul's hotpants and 3-toed faddy. ;) and this random guy who came up t us and showed us his card tricks, was AWE-some.

feat nana.

nana, faddy, dzul.

love, please talk to me. IMY.

booyah!

2009-05-22T13:08:00.002+08:00

and he's my bitch. xoxo

hello swineee.

2009-05-13T22:06:00.003+08:00

and this nose of mine is making me go crazy.

so tell me should i cuut my hair? i know i made a deal w mel not t cut my hair and to just grow it long but im getting bored w it. or maybe i should just color it or idk what t do w my freaking hair. -.-

brother still not coming back home. and we don't know where th fcuking hell is he.

seriously, i need t go get a life.

yeah you.

2009-05-02T23:17:00.001+08:00

you think i'm not being appreciative for th things u've done. u're so wrong. cos i really do. and don't u think im brushing this thing aside for th fact it has been keeping me looking for a solution t this prob. help me w this, boy. i'm just unsure how and where t start. i'm CLUELESS.

over and done.

2009-04-26T01:18:00.002+08:00

I'M GLAD ITS FINALLY OVER. (:

xoxo

never ever-

2009-04-02T00:20:00.002+08:00

chill out wif th girls just now. many things happening, many thing t talk about, many things t settle, many things t b changed and many things t b done. crisis after crisis. i hope and i know they can handle it well. im feeling you.

and dont worry D. im not pressured by them. that i can assure you.♥

white lies.

2009-04-01T03:29:00.002+08:00

'Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you have a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.'

GUYS = SUPER NASTY EGO.

tell me, who th hell in this whole wide world never ever tell a lie? its human nature. we tend t tell lies to cover up our mistakes, hide our feelings/thoughts and whatever it is we know what we are doing and obviously, have our own reasons doing it. she apologised and truly regretted. she knows its her fault but she hd her own reasons. she cnt bear telling th truth so as t not hurt his feelings. but she don t deserve this cold treatment from him. he loves to see her cry, but she's still hoping for him.

green tea, dydy.

2009-03-29T15:18:00.000+08:00

MY SATURDAY!
spending th day with her was great.
its been awhile since we went out together.
biase luhh, ila kan 'workaholic.' not. haha.
and meeting with ida, dydy, cyber and raja at night was short but nice.
and i got th green tea specially for me. *smiling2*
xoxo

and i miss this dude.

sick and tired.

2009-03-22T16:51:00.001+08:00

i don't know what t say. for now i guess. things are gg too fast for me. and i dont know how t react. whether t step back or t move forward. and yeah, u shld know tht im unpredictable. tht its difficult for me t let out my feelings. i really wish it would b easy, but its so hard. i tend t bottle up my feelings, and see how things will go for me rather thn make it happen. its just my nature, and nothing can change it. sometimes, its just th last thing i wanna know. and im not prepared for the worse, yet.

'Love is never wanting to lose faith, never wanting to give up, and never truly moving on. Love is knowing and praying in the deepest part of what's left of your heart that they feel the same.'

hahahahahaha! and khai lost his 'beloved' sideburns.
p/s not my fault eh. (:

walnut Babyyy

2009-03-13T14:19:00.000+08:00

Dhoby Exchange B1-40

Walnut-B

went for the interview yest. and i assumed, it went well. but im still shortlisted thou. got t wait till monday for the verdict. lol! so i went home after that, while waiting for D. lambat giler kape dekni nak siap. kalah pmpan siots. went down t dhoby ghaut t mit him. chilleks. haha.

and yeahh, thanks for the brownie D! (:
yumm yumm~
and all the best for your new job.

and STREET FIGHTER: THE ADVENTURES OF CHUN LI was superbbbb! don't miss it people. :D

sakit kaki

2009-03-11T13:42:00.000+08:00

say goodbye t ur hair khai. haha!

HOLIDAYSSS ARE HERE BEBEH! you know, its funny how u are always looking forward for holidays but when its here, err..... boringgg!(by shaz.) yeah, its super true. before holidays, banyak plan kat kepala otak. da holiday, smuer kirim salam. aisey uhhh. i'd rather go make money. haha. and talking abt making money, ive gt interview on thurs. weee~ and im hoping i'll get this. im superduper desperate for moneyyy oi.

next thurs, gg sch for cutting phase test. and my model? featuring KHAI.
hehehehehe. selamat uh rambot kw aku kerjekan!

and DADDY! i miss you too.

damn!

2009-03-03T21:59:00.013+08:00

Danggg!
cutting phase test, FAIL.
why? bcos no model. -_-

SOMEONE, pleaseee? (for re-test.)

Well. anws, i know its a lil bit too late for NYE updates.
but i just got the pichas bebeh. (:

watchwatch!

2009-02-26T20:35:00.003+08:00

nEbO Care Event 2009

spot me baybeh! :D
p/s mind me 'tak perlu' face.

click this.

kental!

2009-02-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

How could school be boring with friends like them around? ;)
minus the theories, practicals.

xoxo

& a friend don't PESTER another friend for meetups.
i've got a reason for the decline. and yeah, it's not an excuse.
and am i being lame for nt gg to club?
i guess, i'll be super lame t go club with a superduper lame guy like you.(:

like a star

2009-02-12T22:31:00.000+08:00

and now, i've got nothing left of you.
just these song to reminisce those days, which i wished would have stayed.

Like a Star - Corinne Bailey Rae

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands
honour to love you

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind

You've got this look I can't describe,
You make me feel I'm alive,
When everything else is so au fait
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song of your love,

Still I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind

Now I have come to understand The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'Cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,
Yeah-yeah
oh
Oooh......Ooohhhh..
ohhhhhhhh....

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I won't let my guard down for anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands.

superlazy/

2009-02-05T22:23:00.004+08:00

'Weak.
I have been mugging and mugging for weeks.
How'd i survive when i can barely think,
barely learn on my knees.'

Scchhhooool is killing me.
Period.
):):):):):

thinking of you

2009-01-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

pinky swear - quite successful.(:

sumhow i love school.

'Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one

I still got the seed.'

gg cycling tmr! & nak ketawe gile babi.

tak sabar oi.

fuck school and fuck you.

2009-01-20T22:27:00.003+08:00

'cos there's never me in you.'

&fuckschool.

lalala

2009-01-20T01:02:00.001+08:00

i miss u gf.

for you

2009-01-20T00:28:00.002+08:00

It's funny when you said you care;
that you love and that you miss
because now what's left,
are the opposites.

Look at me now and don't blame me.
Can you tell me now what are we;
I won't cry now and i'm guessing,
we're never meant to be.

I guess u never knew how much u meant to me.

u left me torn.

Now, see who's contradicting?

freako

2008-11-17T22:03:00.002+08:00

I WANT A FREAKING JOB FOR THIS HOLIDAYS!
$$$

and sadiq hottt banget!

zoukout 2008

2008-10-28T22:53:00.001+08:00

ZoukOut 2008

Date: Saturday, December 13
Time: 6.30pm
Venue: Siloso Beach, Sentosa

Ticketing Information

Tickets are available from Friday, October 24, at the Zouk ticketing booth or through phone bookings. All major credit cards are accepted, call +65 67382988 or fax + 65 67383988 (office hours: Tues-Tat 10am - 3am).

**$38 Advance Happy Hour tickets Entry to ZoukOut venue before 9pm only. Limited to 2000 tickets, available at the Zouk ticketing booth only. Live Fresh DBS Visa Platinum Cards enjoy 15% discount off tickets

$48 - Advance tickets (up till December 12). Live Fresh DBS Visa Platinum Cards enjoy 15% discount off tickets and all other DBS/POSB Credit Cards get 5% off

$58 - Event Day tickets on December 13, available from the Zouk ticketing booth (all day) and at the venue (from 6.30pm onwards). Live Fresh DBS Visa Platinum Cards enjoy 15% discount off tickets and all other DBS/POSB Credit Cards get 5% off

Advance tickets are also available at SISTIC authorized agents, SISTIC Hotline: +65 63485555, and at HMV Heeren +65 67331822 and Citylink +65 62387218.

Minimum age of entry 18, photo ID required to gain entry.
Note: The entire Zouk complex will be closed on this night.

To all my legal mates, come lets go to this annual party!
its my first year thou.
& i'm really looking forward to it.
with u guys around. :D

OHEYA!

2008-10-18T15:49:00.006+08:00

school was ok, i guess. meeting my classmates was definitely fun! we had so much to catch up. and yeah, we definitely miss each other. (:

i know me and my girls are silly.
but, GUYS ARE SMELLY! lol.

randomness

2008-10-11T15:56:00.000+08:00

'look at my handiplast.'
oke, random.

i'm glad that my working days are over! no more waking up at 0730am, no more 6 days work week, no more standing for 12hrs, and no more 'feet-ache'.

and somehow i'm looking forward for 13th oct. haa. yeah, sch re-opens.(: im excited oke. classmates, thousand-island chix rice, chocolate waffle, cafe 2, practicals, theories, morning classes, gossips, laughs, forum, tap ezlink, lanyard, dummy head, hair, boys, cute boys, and err more cute boys :P

hari raya.not.

2008-10-01T01:48:00.004+08:00

time past by soo fast, w/out me realising its been a month since we started fasting. there will be no more bazaar. no more pre-dawn meal. no more breaking fast. today's hari raya.(:
and here, i would like to wish all my muslim friends, 'SELAMAT HARI RAYA!'. am sorry for my past mistakes to any of you and may u enjoy this special day with ur loved ones. so yahh, happy raya-ing!

helped my mum to finish up cleaning the house. and i hope it looks good tho. haa.
friends are all invited to come over kay?
i am still fretting about having to work tmr. or to be exact the whole first week of raya. omg, i can't stand the feeling of families having to celebrate together while i'll be at work the whole day.
this day might not mean anything to you guys, but it is to me. so yahh.

fcuk/

2008-09-29T23:39:00.002+08:00

work has been consuming my energy to the fullest!
12hrs/per day, 6 days per week.
i can barely stand after work everyday. cos my feet hurts.
and i took MC today, as i was down with fever.

its kinda sad, to think that i cant celebrate hari raya this year.
why? cos i cant get a freaking day off!
maybe i should jus fuck this job off. hmph.

and i actually cried.

cravings.

2008-09-23T03:35:00.003+08:00

♥I MISS YOU TOO BTW.

&i'mcravingforchocolatecoatedstrawberries.

something

2008-09-22T17:02:00.003+08:00

i'm really looking forward to work, but i'm lazy.
i'm really looking forward to thursday, but i'm broke.):

1. Single, Taken, Naked, or Flirt ?
- single,MINGLE (:
2. Are you happy with that ?
- uh huh
3. Would you still kiss your ex ?
- maybe?
4. Have you ever had your heart broken ?
- ohh, its killing me.
5. Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is ok ?
- err?
6. Have you ever talked about marriage ?
- nahh
7. Do you want children ?
- i do!
8. How many ?
- 3? well, it depends.
9. If someone like you right now, would you want them to tell you ?
- yahh.
10. Do you want someone you can't have ?
- yes):
11. Have you ever been in love ?
- ohhlove
12. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries ?
- yup2
13. What would you say about your most recent ex ?
- he's loyal.
14. Does your ex still have feelings for you ?
- no
15. Do you believe in long distance relationships ?
- no
16. Do you believe in love at first sight ?
- yup! sumhow, i guess.

TRUTHS ABOUT ME ?
Are you Perfect ?
- NO.
Are you Tall ?
- not really.
Are you in your pajamas ?
- nah.
LAST :
Last friend you saw ?
- amadcicak.
Last talked to on the phone ?
- fazdil.
Last person to text you ?
- yan|kaz
FAVOURITE :
Number ?
- 3
Colour ?
- RED, black.
Food ?
- fried fish soup. YUMM!
Place ?
- ze beach

QUESTIONS & ANSWERS :
Q : What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up ?
- stretching. my body aching
Q : Do you have anything bother you ?
- my stomach's GRUMBLING
Q : What's the last movie you watched in theatres ?
- forgetting sarah marshal. nice!
Q : Where is the last place you went ?
- cash studio karaoke
Q : Do you smile a lot ?
- i think
Q : Do you wish upon stars ?
- i wish i may, i wish i might
Q : Are you a friendly person ?
- uh huh
Q : Where did you sleep last night ?
- my beddduhh!
Q : When was the last time you cried ?
- last thursday. :,(
Q : What was your last thought before going to bed ?
- will ice-cream cake be a good idea?
Q : Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great ?
- 6.
Q : What do you hear right now ?
- radiooo
Q : Does anything hurt you right now ?
- my tomach
Q : What's your favourite month ?
- blearghhh

EMOTIONS
Are you missing someone right now ?
- yesss
Are you tired ?
- kinda?
Are your parents still married ?
- yes.

BASICS :
Real name ?
- FADDY MAR.
Eye Colour ?
- darkDARK brown
Male or Female ?
- SHEMALE is the new sex
Crushing ?
- err
Hair Colour ?
- brown
Sweats or Jeans ?
- Jean beam
Phone or Camera ?
- camera phone
Health Freak ?
- nop
Righty or Lefty ?
- righty
Smoke or Drink ?
- both

FIRST :
First best friend ?
- azza
First enemy ?
- unknown
First Vacation ?
- KL, i guess

CURRENTLY :
Eating ?
- fasting
Drinking ?
- fasting
Listening to ?
- the radiooo
Plans for tommorow ?
- i wana make kuih cornflakes!
Waiting for ?
- thursdayyy!

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE GENDER :
Lips or eyes ?
- EYES!
Shorter or Taller ?
- taller
Romantic or Spontaneous ?
- romantaneous
Sensitive or Loud ?
- in between
Hook-up or in a relastionship ?
- depends

HAVE YOU EVER :
Drank hard drinks ?
- YES.
Lost glasses/contacts ?
- yeah
Ran away from home ?
- not yet
Broken someone's heart ?
- i think
Been arrested ?
- nope

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Do you like someone ?
- i love everyone
Are you seriously happy with where you are in life ?
- sumhow yah
FIVE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW :
- err, you,YOU,yu,u and euuu.:D

sorry seems to be the easiest word.

2008-09-19T22:20:00.001+08:00

Read Slowly…

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn’t?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don’t be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart…if you don’t, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already
had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn’t.
You can’t tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own……..when you least suspect it, or even when you don’t want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much…for fear that the other person does not
care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid… afraid of what we
don’t know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don’t be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? (even if it is that you don’t care anymore)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn’t have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)
you would bein my heart.
Would I be in yours?

You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year, don’t talk that often the next, and don’t want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,

I look up to you, respect you, truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends

yes, i do.

2008-09-11T01:20:00.002+08:00

dearest Baby.

tis is all real now.
no more acting cool.
no more trying to prove to u that im not weak where i am.
i know its a jiwang song bt wen the first time i hear it ytd, the first few lines captured me and i bluetooth to my fone.
soon after i went hm, i listen it carefully twice and write down the words but dnt knw whether i get the words rite as u knw my malay sucks big time.
and suddenly while writing, my tears drop and rolling down my cheek.
i does really mind of u.
i didnt knw whether u hear tis song b4 or nt bt i just want to share it wit u.
the words represent me on wats really in me.
no more acting cool.
no more being sarcastic.
no more using methaphor.
tis is wat really hidden in me when ure gone.
im really sorry for hurting u.
i really do.
and i knw i dnt deserve any chance no more frm u.
i really got to move on and accept the reality that u left me staring.
p/s: tis the last time i will popup.
take care babygirl.

muchLove,
muhd Razeen.

p/s It takes a lifetime to build a friendship and a second to destroy it. i dont mind what ur feelings are for me now, but should you ever noe, i will always feel happy wif whoever you are. cos i noe luv for mankind never last. IMY.

Luahan Hati (Acoustic) - Iskandar

too much heartbreaks to handle.

2008-09-08T21:34:00.003+08:00

'it's over and done, but the heartache lives on inside.'

well, it hurts to see you go. and i should have known better, like not to put hopes on you. or maybe i shud be upfront with you abt my feelings. but yahh, you cnt always get what u've wished for. i wish you all the best with her. you know i'll be there whenever you need me.

sumhow i still wished things would happen the way i wished it would be. but the facts, made it so impossible. i missed you. i loved you and i still do. im glad i stll have the chance to wish u goodnight, take care and say i miss you. but it felt so right, and it felt so wrong. idk.

'you didnt wave me a gentle goodbye. you just walked away.'

i wish i may, i wish i might.

2008-09-07T15:34:00.004+08:00

Exams are tomorrow, and ive yet to flip thru my notes.

and yeahh, in short ive havent revised a thing yet! damn fatt.

I hope, on wed we will be asked to cut concave rather than layering.

and yeahh, in short i suck balls on layering! damn fatt.

i dreamt abt you just now.

we looked so happy, enjoying each other's company.

we joked, we laughed, we hugged.

and now im missing you soo much.

and i cant deny ive been thinking abt you too.

& please, don't question our relationship.

i wish, i wish.

2008-09-03T12:47:00.003+08:00

job interview today at kiliney road, winsland hse 1 basement 1.
& yeah, i really hav no idea where this is.
but wish me luck people.

issit me or am-i-craving-for-food-already?
cos i smell spaghetti bolognaise. yummm!

skipped school today. self-declared off day. :D

2008-08-30T14:01:00.002+08:00

MODELS URGENTLY NEEDED!!!!!
for BASIC LAYERING or CONCAVE BOB.

Date: 10TH SEPTEMBER 2008, Wednesday.
Venue: ITE Simei, Hair design lab.
Time: 1230-1345hrs.

Interested parties, please tag.(:
& i hopehopehope this will work.

2008-08-29T23:01:00.009+08:00

for practical today, we did pincurls. & i tell you, it was difficult. i nearly gave up, but i just went on with it. for a sec, i thot the curl was nice. but it turns out sooo sai. lol!

i just loveee my classmates so much!:D

your creative director. i wish!(:

give us a kiss!

dhia, wani, dyra, faddy/

ZE' TEAM!

the mirror, our bestfriend

feat me, nana, wani & mas.

2008-08-26T18:06:00.010+08:00

school was ok. FULL OF THEORIES! auyoo.
stressing me out. exam's coming.
i nid, like reallyreallyreally nid to find models for the practicals.
damn.
& 'DEATH RACE' was gooooodddddd!
a must watch movie, i tell you.
thanks arman for the treat. muaxx! haa.
i'll see abt sun okay.(:
hasri is being so random.
Fatimahasri.
cool kankankan? lol!
giler luhh dektu. hee.
i feel sooo lonely. i tink i nid to find a bf.:(
i love rosila & lidia & nasrinda!

2008-08-17T14:29:00.006+08:00

nape piercing

sternum piercing

&&& now its the first time i'm saving money to do a piercing! weeee~ 'cos normally i would pierce them myself. But i don't dare to do it D.I.Y style on any body piercing. To choose between nape or sternum piercing. If i were to do the nape, i would have to tie my hair to ~~show it off~~. lol! and if i choose sternum, i would have to wear low cut tops. hmmmm.

&&& i feel dead without my ciggarettos.

2008-08-16T16:26:00.006+08:00

its SATURDAY! and where most of the population will be out watching movies, gg out for dates, or merely hanging ard with friend; i'm ~~stuck~~ at home.

~~~~~

its not because mummy won't let me go out, its 'cause this fever and cough are killing me!
i tink god granted my wish. lol!

p/s i remembered telling dhia, 'so long i nvr fell sick seyy. i want to hav fever luhh!' haa.

~~~~~

planned to watch midnite movie today with mamat, darwis and some random ppl. but mamat text-ed earlier that plan changed to sheesha-ing. i want! i reallyreallyreally want sheesha. but i still dunno to go or not to go. i can onlii go out ard 10pm and plus im sick. and plus im BROKE! bleargh!

i am feeling sooo dull now.
&&&
its all thanks to you, ciplak. :(

2008-08-12T21:18:00.000+08:00

SW was ok today. went to the gym to workout a lil bit. haa! but something seems missing in there, guess what? THE HOT GUYS LUHH! lol. back to the stadium at 4.45pm,

wanee & sila: da slim fatt? [fatt, slim already?]

fatt: mestila. tgk sape workout.:P [like duh! look hus working out.] haha!

wanee: ur toots da besar? [ur toots bigger or not?]

fatt: dgr2 pegi gym nk besarkn toots pe! [i didn't noe ppl go to gym to make their
toots bigger.]

wanee so random eh! :D

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i guess i shall not bother you animore. yea, im disappointed but i can't do anitink about it. can i? damn. What-ev!

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i'm having fever and flu. but i still wanna go tmr. i tink i should, to let my hair down and prolly let the ~~stress~~ go away. weeee!

2008-07-31T21:43:00.001+08:00

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.

You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.

Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.

You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.

You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.

At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding

When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

2008-07-26T00:26:00.002+08:00

this pic just reminds me of the song 'ZOMBIE'.
idk mayb bcos i sumhow sumwat look like one. lol!

realworks was definitely fun. & i earned 20bucks today. yay! haa.
can i go for realworks every week?(:

i didn't stop laughing at school today.
D:D:D:D:D
& dhia wants me dead.

its verryyyy irritating wen ur bro always ask for ciggs. gahhhh.
ecspecially wen ure left only a few sticks to urself.
but i just sold a stick of marlboro red for $2 to him. lol!
he insisted btw. nt my fault.

i gtg to sleep nw.
'ahh betol?' muahahaha!
(inside joke)

2008-07-21T21:25:00.005+08:00

MONDAY!: came home late today. reached hm ard 8plus. finished class ard 4 n den went to MLC to do my script wif dyra, dhia n nana. after that went to tamp macd to mit up wif mamat. den saw emie. haha! long time nvr saw him lei.we catch up fer a while. say waant to send me hm, in e end he went hm first. kannina cb.:P chilling wif amin, ayie n frens. my stomach cn burst eh laugh so much. ecspecially wif bob ard. haha! he's a real funny guy. time to go hm, upon reaching int i saw hyder! damndamndamn. im.so.happy cn? ask me out soon leii. (:

SUNDAY!: initially i was bored at hm. den amir came out wif the idea of eating outside. his treat sumore! im broke n hungry so i tot why not eh. haha! he fetched me ard 730pm under my block. n complained to me dat it was sooo difficult to find my blk. ~~pity him.~~ so we went far east to eat. i ate chicken fried rice. walauweiii! ver nice. so long nvr eat der. den went lido to watch 'THE DARK NIGHT'. great movie. but to me very violent eh. aiyooo. hw i wish e joker will die.

SATURDAY!: i really enjoyed my day! met up wif ite clem peepsys. i miss them truckloads! tho it was onlii for awhile, i app8 their time fpr e mit-up.((: later joined wani, nana, amin n frensss. they were a bunch of happy ppl to hang ard with. weee~

2008-07-19T12:40:00.003+08:00

i hate doing housekeeping in the hair lab. cos no matter how much u sweep or mop th floor, der will still be hair ard. so u'll rather hide those little hairs under e chair or trolleys. haa! & it sucks if ur teacher go ard to check and she starts to move e chair n trolleys and find out e ~~'treasure'~~. and we have to really sweep it again. gahhhhh.

on friday, we learned how to do finger waving. damn, its soo effing hard. i only managed to do 2 waves. n it doesnt even look like e real thing! lame rite, tell me abt it. & ms leong was saying that my attendance was v. bad. like nt attending practical lessons. i mean i understand its e most impt lesson, but i just can't bring my ass to go class. idk. simplyy tired or ~~lazy~~ i guess. muahahaha!

p/s starting from today onwards, i PROMISED myself to attend every lessons. i really mean attend classes. but e latecoming part, i'm nt sure myself. teehee!

today's saturday! yay! e only day i cn enjoy. release my self from stresses. stresses from hm, school, random ppl. ((: & i hope i get to meet Mr. D.*wink wink*
ENJOY YOUR SATURDAY PEOPLE! :D:D:D

2008-07-16T22:14:00.002+08:00

school has been a bore. thank god i'm blessed wif great classmates. haa!
my day will be filled wif laughters.:D

&&&

i MISS my besties soooo much.

my stud's ball kip losing. WTF!
if this continues, i'll b penni-less!

p/s how would you feel if i told you all i ever do is to reminisce all the time that i spent with you?♥

love

2008-07-09T22:03:00.004+08:00

agree? haa.

monroe fan

2008-07-08T20:48:00.003+08:00

FINALLY!
I got my monroe piercing done,
all by myself.:D:D:D

dbl happiness!:D

2008-07-04T14:30:00.004+08:00

AT LAST! i got to let my hair down at dbl o yest.:D
like sumhow yest it seems to be a ~~weird~~ place to me, idk mayb cox its been like 3mths i didn't club. haa.
but gosh! i was super happy cox i got to meet my so-long-nvr-see frens.hee!

&&&

not forgetting my ex-crush. argh! super damn irritating.
cox flashbacks of me and him came into my mind. GSF!
liza was drunk, and i hav to 'layankan' her. but i did enjoyed myself.:D

&&&
what made my night was to bump into HYDER!
i miss him truckloads.haa!
♥♥♥

2008-06-27T16:24:00.000+08:00

haha! i was late to update abt e chalet.(: cox i was sooo shagged. but nvm. chalet was fun afterall. tho it was kinda boring too. i love the slide at the swimming pool. n of cos! e jacuzzi.:D

& did i tell you dat my brother thot dat the word 'shagged' was spposed to be used after having sex? idk bt he was convincing, like he was asking me to look up in e dictionary n all. i didnt bother to check tho. hmmm.

me, cherry, wani.(:

<333

sweetest dugs!

we sure hav a hell lots of fun!;P

the photos are all taken within 23rd-25th june 08. MEMORIES I CHERISH!

online BF!

2008-06-21T09:45:00.000+08:00

its been 3 days i've been ~~rotting~~ at home. yeah, you've got it right, 3 straight days. i wanna go out, but lazy. and e ultimate reason, NO MONEY!. haix. few things hav been running in mind lately.

>Boy R.
i don't understand the attitude u've given me. the swearing n all. its not necessary ok. & the unknown girl hus been msg-ing me all the while, telling me what i shud do and not do, giving me threats. and she tinks i'll b soooo threatened by it. cox i tink you shud get a life! MYOB! and if u want him sooo much, be my guest as me & him r just friends. its not like as if i'm gonna stand between u guys. wth. and boy, i'm sorry to what has happened to us. i didn't planned it, i didn't see it cuming. you were the 1 hu wanted me to go so much cox u tink im wasting ur so-called-precious time. n yeah, if i were to stay and hold on to this friendship, u wld prolly still ask me to go away too.:(

p/s i miss ur company.

>I miss my besties!

>23rd-25th June 2008
i simplyyy cant wait for HB's class chalet! i bet its gonna b fun.:D

I WANNA MAKE CORNFLAKES IN CUPCAKES! YUMYUMYUM!

you love blow & i love puff.

2008-06-21T07:02:00.000+08:00

and this song has been replaying itself in my head, credits to nana.:D
Back To Black - Amy Winehouse

SUMMER HOLIDAYS!

2008-06-20T14:57:00.000+08:00

I wan go SENTOSA!

...

2008-06-20T13:31:00.000+08:00

haha! gimme gimme gimme more!